Rise

Ignite (Rebel Hearts)

Change

Redemption (is a Fantasy)

Lament

Let Me Go

Just

Quit or Run

Higher

Misery

The Meaning of Life

C'est La Vie

Dreams of Youth

Hurricane

All I Need

Thick & Thin

Solace

Navigator

Ghost




Rise

I’m keeping my heading
Oh I feel it coming now
It’s coming now
I ain’t going “nowhere”
I keep a steady eye
A steady eye
And fire away

So damn what you want
Cause this is my call
And this is my soul
And all else will fade
So I’d rather fall
Than never have flown at all

Gaining ground here little by little now
And my feet are off and marching into war
I free myself of every shred of doubt
Never blasé when it comes to my fate

I won’t fall in line
Cause this is my soul
This is my soul
Battered and frayed
But I’d rather fall
Then never have flown at all

Rise and take control


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Ignite (Rebel Hearts)

A heart beats like a rolling thunder
‘Rise up!’ it cries ‘shake your slumber’
Heed the bell toll
And sunder chains from souls

Breathe sweet release,
We’re off our knees and unbound
Slaves to no one now
La vie Bohème for us
To them we’re outlaws, ‘hedon’ pariahs all

‘Cause when the night falls,
We come alive
Oh, we’d never make it
Inside of your walls
We burn at both ends,
Cannot be fenced in
We’re made of lightning
And we are igniting

We’re on fire! We’re on fire!
Bleeding flames now
Electric veins searing wakes
Without shame now

We are all the same here
Enlightened and estranged
We’re streaks across the night sky
Basking in the moonlight




‘Cause when the night falls,
We come alive
Oh, we’d never make it
Inside of your walls
We burn at both ends,
Cannot be fenced in
We’re made of lightning
And we are igniting

When rebel hearts, beat as one
We are brighter than the sun
We are wind and we are flame
We are passion unrestrained
When the light hits the horizon
We retreat beside the tide
But we own the night
And what we’ve made will never die

Oh rebel hearts unite
Oh rebel hearts ignite

We’re made of lightning
Wild and blinding


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Change

You’re subtle as a hand grenade,
You stab me with my own blade
You really are something you are, baby

I’m guarded as a motorcade
Constantly at arm’s length
Keeping it all but the pain away

Soul-tried and hopelessly hoping
I’m so tired of feeling this way
And every night I lie awake dreaming in my grave
And promising soon to escape
Oh, I want to change, but ever I’m still where I started
And baby its always the same thing

You’re harmless as an undertow
You sink me with my own stone
Taunting me always, ‘I dare you to break free’

I’ve been lazy
In need of changing
Come on save me from myself cause lately I’m

Soul-tried and hopelessly hoping
I’m so tired of feeling this way
And every night I lie awake dreaming in my grave
And promising soon to escape
Oh, I want to change, but ever I’m still where I started
And baby its always the same thing
I need some more, love, more
Cause I’m drained to my core and forlorn


Oh take this weight off me
I’m not at all where I should be
But it’s not like I never believe
I’m just lost, and won’t find peace

Soul-tried and hopelessly hoping
I’m so tired of feeling this way
And every night I lie awake dreaming in my grave
And swearing soon to escape
Oh, I want to change, but ever I’m still where I started
And baby its always the same thing

You’re subtle as a hand grenade,
You stab me with my own blade
You really are something you are, baby


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Redemption (is a Fantasy)

I never dreamed I’d be the target of a manhunt
But then I never thought I’d do the things that I’ve done
And now I’m living on the run

I shot a man in the back with a rifle
For nothing other than the fact that I was spiteful
Of what he thought he might become

When did I lose sight?
Why am I uptight?
When I have no right to feel this way
But I’m loathing anyway

Damn these thoughts that haunt and plague me
Twist me up and suffocate me
All these lies I buy
“My innocence is gone
From all these things I’ve done
I’m way past saving now”

Now all I do is float around like some mindless
Hopeless Jellyfish, spineless and adrift
Stinging everything I come in contact with

I can already feel that noose
It’s almost as welcome as overdue
We’ve used up our last excuse
Now I’m counting on you

Torches and Pitchforks,
Fire and Brimstone
Follow me always,
What have I become?
A terrible thought
In a pitiful body
Who constantly feels
That redemption’s beyond me

Damn these thoughts that haunt and plague me
Twist me up and suffocate me
All these lies I buy
“My innocence is gone
From all these things I’ve done
I’m way past saving now”


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Lament

You ran like a thief
And you stole all of me, all of me
You stabbed and you fleed
Left me here to bleed, here to bleed

You promised the world then you burned like the sun
But I thrived on your warmth, now I’m frozen and numb
How was I so wrong? Are you not the one?
I built you a house, but you never came home

And now that you’re gone, and I’m alone
The colors all fade and my world is cold
You spoke of your love like there might’ve been hope
But you sank like a stone when I thought you would float
You chose to desert when it’d hurt me the most
I can’t let you go, when I live with your ghost
But now that you’re gone, all there’s to say,
Is so long

It’s frighteningly calm,
But there was never a storm
You were just here, then you were gone
And after so long
You were my reason for breathing
And now I’m just lost

And now that you’re gone, and I’m alone
The colors all fade and my world is cold
You spoke of your love like there might’ve been hope
But you sank like a stone when I thought you would float
You chose to desert when it’d hurt me the most
I can’t let you go, when I live with your ghost
But now that you’re gone, all there’s to say,
Is so long

I can’t mend my soul if I cant let you go and
And I can’t let you go, when I’m clinging to hope
And I can’t say goodbye when I’m always alone and
I can’t mend my soul when it’s utterly broken


Now all that I am, and all I believed
Came tumbling down, ripped apart at the seams
You spoke of your love but there never was hope
When you speak your lies now I hope that you choke
I’m hopeful in time, I won’t have to lie
When I say, “Believe me without you I’m fine”
And now that you’re gone all there’s to say
Is so long


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Let Me Go

One last time
I tell myself every time
But always return to the scene of the crime
Just like a ghost to the place where they died

Cause you make me yearn to be refused
You intimate hope for a life you won't choose
Keep me around just keep you amused
Won't you please cut me loose?

I'm bleeding out slowly
But you keep me alive
I'm pleading for mercy
But you won't let me die
If you're not in love with me
Just tell me so
And stop reeling me in
And then letting me go

It can't be the chase you love cause I've never run
It can't be a game cause you've already won
I feel like a dog at the races
Who futilely chases what's endlessly just out of reach

You make me yearn to be abused
You suture me up just to open new wounds
And how is it I'm neither numb nor immune?
And why when you call can I never refuse?

I'm bleeding out slowly
But you keep me alive
I'm pleading for mercy
But you won't let me die
If you're not in love with me
Just tell me so
And stop reeling me in
And then letting me go

Why don’t you love me the way that I do?
Why don’t you need me the way I need you?
How many years have I wasted, hoping you’ll change when
You never will
You never will
You never will, forever you’re just
Reeling me in, reeling me in
And letting me go

You steal the life from me
Shake all that I believe
But I can’t leave you no,
I’ll always need you so
I love you more than words
It’s more than you deserve
You’re stringing me along
Like grabbing onto fog
But all I catch is mist
What little of you sticks
Then you dry up and you’re gone,
And I’m again alone
And on and on it goes
Forever it unfolds
We’re fated I suppose
To always play these roles


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Just

Heard the calling, got the hell out
Now I’m tired of treading water
I’ve been dead set on these big dreams
and I’m plotting all my surefire schemes

you tell me, “you’re far too old
to stand on a glass earth throwing stones
put all of your faith in hope”
I’ve drained my soul to keep me just

Hanging on, to keep me hanging on
To keep me just…

I’ve been falling through the dream mine
And I’m hoping at the bottom
All the mountains of coins I’ve thrown
Have bought the wish I cast them for

And it won’t be a reap-less sow
Don’t tell me, “this garden won’t grow hope,
you’ll bear only rose-less thorns”
enough’s been born to keep me just

Hanging on, to keep me hanging on
To keep me just…

Don’t fail me you’re all I know
Don’t leave me desperate and alone
When all other light is gone
A single spark is all I need

To keep whole the earth below
To dig down for life beneath the snow
To carry, to carry on, to carry on,
to keep me just…

Hanging on, to keep me hanging on
To keep me just…


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Quit or Run

‘This ain’t the life I’d planned
Man I sank so quickly
I’m drowning on dry land’

Shut your mouth,
You haven’t drowned,
You’re only 3 feet under ground
You’re giving up before
The Reaper’s at your door

Push to shove,
You’re just a chump
You’re standing Cliffside scared to jump
Bound for ground we’re all
So leap, enjoy the fall

It’s a lonely road I know
And nothing ever stands between a bullet and your soul
It’d be easier to just succumb
The race is on, but you’re still waiting for the gun
So either quit or run

Paralyzed
The venom is seeping,
Hope is fleeting from your eyes
Carrion before your time

You’re atrophied from apathy
You’ve been too long off your feet
You dreamed of sanctity
But everything’s gone wrong

It’s a lonely road I know
And nothing ever stands between a bullet and your soul
It’d be easier to just succumb
The race is on, but you’re still waiting for the gun
So either quit or run

You’ve got the world to own
All you could ever hope
Just tell me you’re still able enough
There ain’t another way
You either run or stay
Tell me the will still remains

It’s a lonely road I know
And nothing ever stands
Between a bullet and your soul
It’d be easier to just succumb
The race is on but you’re still waiting for the gun
So either quit or run

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Higher

"Open wide, and stay open wide
it’s a blue-streak, life
but live as if you’ll never die"

And whether wrong or right
It’s an axiom I can’t deny
And I’m beginning to like
The thrill and perils of learning to fly

Some moments are over way too fast,
and I get swept away with them every time
I close my eyes and I get,

Higher and higher
to the borders of Elysium
Higher and higher
Higher and higher
to the borders of Elysium
Higher and higher

Morning light
Hits like a dagger in a waking eye
But at least I’m alive,
With her asleep at my side

Then she smiles and sighs,
And I’m swimming in her opening eyes,
It’s a rising tide that I’m content to drown in
To drown inside

These moments are over way too fast,
and I get swept away with them every time,
I close my eyes and I get

Higher and higher to the borders of Elysium
Higher and higher
Higher and higher to the borders of Elysium
Higher and higher

I wanna be far away and long beyond the apogee
I wanna feel air without the hindrance of gravity
I want me to stall, and be out of control
I’m fearless to fall, cause I know it won’t be long
before I’m thrown

Higher and higher

And love, love is a catapult
Your love, your love is a catapult
Your love, your love is
Higher and higher
Till I fade away

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Misery

Get lost
Come back again
Cause I can’t decide where I hate you less
In the past or in my bed
And I’m alone
Even at your side
And I could fill the void you opened up
With all these tears I’ve cried
 
So darling you can leave or stay
Cause I’ll be mired in misery either way
 
I can’t shake this damn addiction
And I can’t fix off the dose you’re giving
Cause when you’re around you don’t want to be
But when I’m alone I’m in agony
So I’m clinging onto your charity
 
So darling you can leave or stay
Cause I’ll be mired in misery either way
 
You were everything
I’d ever need
And you swore to me that you’d never leave
You promised me ‘eternally’
Now it’s dangerously clear to me
That you don’t know what it means anyway
 
I wish I didn’t love you
I wish I didn’t love you
 
Oh I wish I didn’t love you
Wish my heart beat not only for you
Oh I wish so many things that just won’t be
Like I wish I didn’t need you
I wish I never had believed you
I wish I never ever had to watch you leave… willingly

 


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The Meaning of Life

I met an old man today
Standing on the street
Wearing a sign that read:
“This is my last day alive”
So I stopped to ask
If in his long life,
There was anything that he regretted
And he spoke to me words I will never forget…

He said,
“I’ve lived my whole life
knowing one day I’ll die,
and that it’s alright, oh but it’s alright
And if you are wise,
You’ll take my advice
And you’ll do alright
Yes you’ll turn out fine”

Oh, he said “life is just a phase
You can only get out what’s put in
And it’s over in a blink
So why not give everything
Boy are you listening?
It won’t be repeated man,
And this is the meaning of life”

Saw an old friend today
Standing in the rain
Wearing a ring that she did
not have the last time we met
So, out of concern I
Stopped to ask her why
She’d betrayed solitude
Her attribute I’d most admired
Then she spoke to me words I will never forget,

She said,
“I’ve lived my whole life
hoping one day I’d find
something beautiful that I could both share and call mine
and if you’re as blessed as I
one day you will find
Cyclicality between souls is what makes you whole

And falling in love is like an eclipse,
For it only occurs once or twice
And you could miss it if you blink,
So why not embrace it when you become faced with it
It’s so amazing man,
And this is the meaning of life”

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C'est La Vie

I’d take you to the moon child
Faster than the speed of glee
But never leave the room
Be two horizontal beings on a vertical trajectory
 
Stop now! With this resisting
Futile, you’ll never listen
Oh how you’re gonna be missing out
 
Baby I could be your number one shock
Make your pretty little heart stop
Tangle you up with my tentacle lock on you
And then blow you through the roof
 
Oh and you could be my pheromone dream queen
All I’d ever need 
You’d be my favorite drug
And I’d be shooting you up all night
If you’d let down your walls
 
I’ll never wear you down
No, you’re like a penitentiary
We should’ve probably learned by now
But we’re both stupid little stubborn things
 
So sweet dreams, Azraline
I’m putting you to sleep
I’ll suck it up and let it go
And say c’est la vie
 
But I could be your number one shock
Make your pretty little heart stop
Tangle you up in my tentacle lock on you
And then blow you through the roof
 
Oh and you could be my pheromone dream queen
All I I’d ever need 
You’d be my favorite drug
And I’d be shooting you up all night
If you’d let down your walls
 
You could be so well loved
But you’ll never know
But you’ll never know
You’ll never know
You could be so filled up
But you’ll never know
You’ll never know it now
 
 
Guess it wasn’t meant to be
C’est C’est la Vie


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Dreams of Youth

I should’ve known, I should’ve known
When I set out to chase you down
I could’ve done, oh what I could’ve done!
Had never I begun the hunt
I’d rather wash forlorn to adverse shores, than safe with my regrets at home
And watch another toil and row, to might achieve what I had hoped
Had only I’d the nerve to go
Instead of pining here alone

I’m wearing down from inside out but I’m not over you
I live without in endless doubt, but im not over you
But I’m not over you…yet

Any port in every storm will never get you far from home,
And lost at sea, I’d rather be, eternally, than never go
And even if it takes my soul, and everything I’ve ever owned,
just to keep this ship afloat, just keep alive these oars,
then I’ll forge on into the storm
with all the stars to guide me on

I’m wearing down from inside out but I’m not over you
I live without in endless doubt, but im not over you
But I’m not over you…yet

And I can’t decide if,
most days I can’t decide at all if I’m lost, if I’m lost
I can’t decide if… oh am I lost? Am I lost?

I’m wearing down from inside out but I’m not over you
I live without in endless doubt, but im not over you
But I’m not over you…yet

I’m not over you
All my dreams of youth

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Hurricane

You shimmer like the Northern Star
And I’m just the guy with the
Telescope on the ground
You’re rushing like a waterfall and I’m just the
dribbling of a faucet that won’t turn off
I got concrete shoes, and you’re
strapped to rockets,
If it’s sink or swim, then I’m swiftly drowning
I’m on the ocean floor and you’re out of the atmosphere

Why do I not see this coming?
The more I try, the less you’re enamored
When it all plays out, well
who was I kidding?
To say you’re out of my league
doesn’t start to explain it
I’m a drop of rain and
baby you’re a hurricane

I whipped out the big
guns, aimed to impress,
centered those cross-hairs on your chest
crossed my
fingers, pulled the trigger
just hoping for the best
you probably wish the
bullet had caught my head
but it landed in my foot instead



Why do I not
see this coming?
The more I try, the less you’re enamored
When it all plays
out, well who was I kidding?
To say you’re out of my league
Doesn't start to explain it
I’m a drop of rain and
baby you’re a hurricane Those chemicals made synapses fire,
made illogical seem probable
Like a cannonball,
I’m bound to soar and fall I’m just a lead balloon, you’re
anti-gravitational.
And I’m out of my head

Why do I not see this coming?
When the more I try,
the less you’re enamored When it all plays out,
well who was I kidding?
To say you’re out of my league
doesn’t start to explain it
I’m just a drop of rain and
baby you’re a…

But if I had what I
want, I’d get you off
and I’d turn you on
And I’d have what I need,
to bring down a goddess
to her knees I’d sell my soul to know,
what to give to the girl who’s got it all
I’d conjure the winds to blow
and knock you off of that pedestal
I’m calling your bluff,
and I bet it all so you better fold
If I don’t strike gold,
what’s left to give when you got it all?

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All I Need

Twenty years running,
I’m hopelessly caught in this maze
Well I dart around corners
through corridors that all look the same
I’m revived by the sound of your voice
as you whisper my name
With each step that I take
I more fervently taste my escape
I can feel it like it’s pouring through my veins
I give all that I have
Cause I’m hoping this maze will unfold
Right at your door, baby
And when I get home you’re all that I need
And when I grow old you’re all that I need
Azraline, my queen

I spent twenty years floating
and I’m hopelessly stranded at sea
Well I’m searching for green
in this fusion of blue around me
I steer for the horizon at the corner of the world
Where the advent of a zephyr
and the swelling of a purl
Let me know I’m close

I can feel it like it’s pouring through my veins
I give all that I have
Cause I’m hoping this breeze carries me
Onto your shore, baby

And when I get home you’re all that I need
And when I grow old you’re all that I need
I know it’s a long way
But I’ll get there someday
And when I get home you’re all that I need
Azraline

And I know there’s a thousand miles dividing us
And no, I won’t – till I’m standing in your door – give up
and I know it won’t be long
Now that I found out where to go
I don’t need much
Just open up and let me in

And when I get home you’re all that I need
And when I grow you’re all that I need
Oh it’s a long way
But I’ll get there someday
And when I get home you will be all I need
Azraline, my queen

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Thick & Thin

In the glow of a street light,
when the night cloaks her shame,
she looks for love and the
comfort of a hollow embrace
And though it offers her gold,
and brief escape from the cold
She’s after something much more
than simply warming her bones

She says,
“a few lays, alleviate the sharp pangs of hunger,
But a heartbeat’s still all I have”

And she says, “I want someone
to love me just the way I am,
just the way I am”
She says, “I want someone beside me
whether lose or win,
through thick and thin”

In the blaze of the limelight
To unanimous pride
She outshines every diamond in a starlet’s sky
But she’s shrouded in darkness like a waning moon
she knows there’s much more to her than is seen by the world
She says, “I can’t find peace of mind
when nobody knows me
And a heartthrob is all I am”

And she says,
“I want someone to love me
just the way I am, just the way I am”
She says, “I want someone beside me
whether lose or win,
oh through thick and thin”

“When the light fades to night
brings the cold rain and thunder
When a desert sun, is burning up
every drop of hope there under
Be an anchor in an ocean of change”
And she says,
“I want someone to love me
just the way I am, just the way I am”

“Say to me, come on and say to me
Say you’ll love me just the way I am,
just the way I am
Stay beside me whether lose or win
oh through thick and thin”

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Solace

With folding eyes, fading out the worldI flee to find solace in the memory of a girl
Her sanctity surrounds me, it saturates my soul
She’s burning like a blue flame to melt away the cold
 
At the sight of her, I’m overcome
 
There’re words we never spoke out loud,
But silence would scream the ineffable
And all the fires we can’t put out
When ash is all that remains I’ll love you still
 
I open fire, target all my pain
Whisper in wind, too afraid to speak her name
She’s beautiful but so sad, I ruminate my muse
I linger in the memory of a moment gone too soon
 
In a sudden wave, I’m overcome
 
There’re words we never spoke out loud,
But silence would scream the ineffable
And all the fires we can’t put out
When ash is all that remains I’ll love you still
 
We’re grounded but not without wings,
though we were never meant to fly
parted but not without design
and we’re stronger for knowing why
but everything changes darling in time
 
There’re words we never spoke out loud,
But silence would scream the ineffable
And all the fires we can’t put out
well I’m gonna love you more and more
 
Go on, go on you’ve made me whole
Go on, go on you saved me
And I’m where I belong, I’m where I belong
Go on, go on you made me whole


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Navigator


I like the way you look tonight
Wearing only moonlight
You sparked a fire
And I am smoldering
You feign indifference darling,
But I feel you trembling
You’re trying so hard
To not be physical
Why even fight it child,
When it’s this natural?

When we’re all alone and no one needs to know
Without a single light on

Let me be the navigator, and I will guide you
I know you’re scared to fly, let me ease your mind
If I’m the navigator you’ll be alright
we’ll find euphoria before sunrise

I like the way you hesitate,
Often lust so prolonged can be the right kind of wrong
For you,
You say you’re bound by a circle so you can’t acquiesce
You should rely on your senses cause it’s senseless distress
To deny what your conscience screams is
A consequent-less trip
Cause no one needs to know

We’re all alone, so why just dip your toes?
Why not breathe in deep and dive down?

Let me be the navigator, and I will guide you
I know you’re scared to fly, let me ease your mind
If I’m the navigator you’ll be alright
we’ll find euphoria before sunrise

Drip drops that poison thawing from her mind,
Adrift at last, she’s swimming in the sky
And all her doubts are far behind
And she falls in love
Her body ebbs in the undulating tide,
Blanketed in stars, she whispers the night
That all I am is all she needs
And she falls in love

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Ghost

A single ray of light is dancing in a darkened room
it penetrates an eye close-by, but the black is not removed
the face in which the eye resides is a mix of cloth and stone
a pale linen veil draped over withered bones

She hovers like a moth over the flame,
But it’s not the light she needs, only the heat it brings
And as I watch the powder start to change
I know where seven years have gone to waste

I would give the world
To go back all those years
And stop you at the start
before you disappeared

I’ll be there for you when I can
just show me there’s yet something there
that’s still worth fighting for

The world around her is just spinning like a carousel
All attempts to revert back to normalcy have quickly failed
As her immortality is sizzling on a silver spoon
She’ll contemplate the point in space and then create the wound

I do not know this solemn ghost
It’s not the human I recall
her shell’s remained the same
But all the hope in her is gone

I would give the world
To go back all those years
And stop you at the start
before you disappeared

I’ll be there for you when I can
just show me there’s yet something there
that’s still worth fighting for

save me
save me
save me
come on say
save me
save me
save me
and I’ll replace the flame

my little ray of light is dancing in a cloud she made
I wish she’d come back down where it is safe
And stay


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